by Manon Soavi
When we talk about self-mastery, the first image that usually comes to mind is that of an individual rising to mastery, to unalterable calm. Those who are masters of themselves are detached individuals, dominating their passions and emotions much as one dominates nature and subordinate beings. Seen in this light, self-mastery is an idea borrowed from Kantian philosophy: man, detached from the world, freed from the bonds that constrain him, is no longer affected by emotions and, by becoming his own “ideal of freedom”, no longer feels himself or the world around him. In the West, our philosophy, history and religions lead us to view self-mastery in this way. Moreover, we teach children to control themselves through willpower, and those who fail to do so are considered weak. The warrior ideal that deeply permeates our culture sees no other choice than to be dominant or dominated, whatever the subject.
I totally agree that Heijoshin, self-mastery or inner calm, is fundamental, not only in the practice of martial arts but also in life in general. However, I am interested in another way of achieving this state of Heijoshin. Just as courage is not the absence of fear, Heijoshin may not be the absence of emotions and sensations either.

Returning to the root
This other path can be described as reverse path, or returning to the root. This path is a descent into the depths of humanity, towards darkness. A journey that connects us to ourselves and our sensitivity and, because it places us at the centre of the universe, it centres us on ourselves in relation to the surrounding life. Self-mastery is then not a question of control, a “power” over oneself or others, but the rediscovery of ‘the power within’, as theorised by author Starhawk1cf. Starhawk, Dreaming the Dark: Magic, Sex, and Politics, 1982, Beacon Press (Boston) [French trans.: pouvoir du dedans]. Thus, seeking Heijoshin is not about keeping at a distance what disturbs us, others, etc., but rather accepting the interdependencies of living beings and even “kneading” them through the physical experience of sensation.
Aikidō, beyond the always present martial nature, is a physical practice that brings us to this attention to reality through learning by way of the body. We live and experience directly what passes through us and seek how to remain centred. Ueshiba O-sensei said, ‘I am the centre of the Universe.’2[See e. g. Ueshiba Morihei, The Art of Peace, Shambala Publications (Boston & London, 2002), p. 11 & 20. Or also Tsuda Itsuo, The Science of the Particular, Chap. XVIII, 2015, Yume Editions (Paris), p. 148, or (same author & publisher) The Way of the Gods, Chap. XIII, 2021, p. 101 (1st ed. in French: 1976, p. 132; 1982, p. 96)] I understand this in a non-dualistic sense, where there is no opposition between me, a small individual, and the immense world. I am the centre because the world is the centre. Tsuda Itsuo sensei often addresses the question of inner calm in his books, as here:

To see blue sky where there isn’t any is impossible. It’s mad. It’s crazy.’3Tsuda Itsuo, The Dialogue of Silence, Chap. I, 2018, Yume Editions, p. 16 (1st ed. in French: 1979)
Others have expressed the need to feel what binds us, not as shackles, but on the contrary as the capacity for ‘Perceiving life in all things’, as Noguchi Hiroyuki said, or even Laozi:
Returning to the root means stillness’4Laozi, Tao Te Ching, Chap. XVI, trans. David Hong Cheng (2000)
This inner tranquillity is not a New Age idea, or something for eco-friendly hipsters who go to recharge their batteries for half a day in the forest. It is not about always being “cool”. It is something concrete that is discovered through practising and deepening breathing.
Perceiving reality
When confronted with reality, humans tend to struggle, overwhelmed by feelings of injustice, or to submit, overcome by discouragement. Some still want to control everything, but is that really possible? However, facing reality is not as easy as we think, even if we all imagine ourselves doing so. Often, we create our own “drama” by feeding a narrow, emotionally biased view of reality.
The ancient Taoists were not mistaken; they did not take this ability for granted and had a practice for cultivating the perception of the world, which they called mingxin5[Chin. míng xīn 暝心. This paragraph paraphrases Monica Esposito, La Porte du dragon [The Dragon Gate], PhD Thesis, Université Paris VII, 1993, Introduction, p. 70, 2d parag. See also Chap. III, 2. The Secret of…, 2. Preface to…, (xii) Third stage…, pp. 216–7.], “darkening the heart”. Mingxin refers to the twilight hours, those magical moments before sunrise and sunset. In these moments, light spreads evenly and offers an equal view of everything around us. Contours fade away and we see things as they are, with no more emotional judgement. Darkening the heart means putting oneself in this state of mind, this emptiness of spirit, in order to feel-see reality and let Non-Doing take effect. Tsuda sensei spoke of this in relation to Katsugen Undō (Regenerative Movement):
How difficult it has become today, this scaling down to less and less! We surround ourselves with thick layers of facades to protect ourselves from others: arrogance, possessiveness, snobbery to set ourselves apart from others, begging familiarity, the need for tenderness, eccentricity to attract attention, aggressiveness, worship, the desire to dominate, etc. It is difficult to list all the features we notice in others and not in ourselves. Life is suffocating.’6Tsuda Itsuo, One, Chap. XIII, 2026, Yume Editions, pp. 100–1 (1st ed. in French: 1978)
Rather than letting our life suffocate within us, we can make way for it, give it priority over everything else. Practising Katsugen undō is one way of doing this. Similarly, the short moments of daily meditation included in the respiratory practice that begins all our Aikidō sessions can be likened to mingxin. Early in the morning, in the calm of the dōjō, the heart calms down and the breathing slows. We are no longer struggling for control; it is a special moment when we can integrate reality with greater calm and feel that we are the centre of the universe.
My father, Régis Soavi, a student of Tsuda sensei, who has been teaching for fifty years, is also my Aikidō sensei. My education with a father who was an Aikidō teacher, a libertarian spirit, a feminist before his time and a great lover of Zhuangzi, consisted more of working on awareness of reality as it is: uncontrollable. He taught me that it is our inner positioning that changes, not “Reality” itself but the point from which we interact with it, which in turn changes the reality around us. This is the action of Non-Doing or Non-Acting, this ‘mode of activity’7[definition proposed by Jean François Billeter (his original term is « régime d’activité »), see his Études and Leçons sur Tchouang-tseu [Studies and Lessons on Zhuangzi] published by Allia (Paris)] as sinologist Jean-François Billeter calls it, which is so difficult for Westerners to understand. Letting go of our judgements and preconceptions, and rediscovering inner calm, which lies within us but which we – too agitated and anxious – often forget. Then, curiously, unexpected possibilities for action appear.

Our compass: sensation
If self-mastery is not the transcendence of the body by the mind, nor separation and insensitivity, it is clear that it does not mean being overwhelmed by emotions and sensations. On the contrary, it means accepting them as part of life, feeling them and letting them flow in order to maintain inner calm. In the practice of Aikidō, this is very evident when we allow ourselves to be overwhelmed by fear, the will to win, or other emotions. With training, we immediately sense that we have lost this calm; we are no longer “empty”, even if our technical mastery allows us to overcome the attack.
Far from the idea of technical mastery or control that allows us to “deal with reality”, the philosophy of Tao goes in the same direction, valuing intuition, mental emptiness and the ability to adapt, which allow us to harmonise with the situation: ‘If we understand how to harmonise, the body will be calm, and if the body is calm, the world will be in order. It is akin to the response of an echo (xiangyin). That is why, if we are able to achieve a moment of purity and harmony, it will be a moment of true, effective Virtue [or Regime of activity].’8The Dragon Gate (op. cit.), Chap. III, 5. Alchemical Pratice…, 7. Two texts…, (i) The Ten Rules of…, p. 345
I experienced this while performing as a concert pianist for over ten years. If I was afraid throughout the concert, even when my performance was correct and I had sufficient mastery of myself outwardly, my interpretation suffered, and my relatives in the audience could sense my stress and were unable to enjoy the concert. If there were no stakes, no stress at all, I could lose my concentration and make silly mistakes. On the contrary, when I managed to be truly calm inside, with just the right amount of stage fright to maintain my concentration and stamina during the concert, then my perception and that of my relatives were completely different, “the world was in order”.
The stage
It was during my years as a concert pianist that I had my most revealing experiences of self-mastery. Beyond technical mastery or knowledge of the work being performed, the stage experience is quite paradoxical. Everything is prepared and rehearsed, sometimes for months, yet the element of the unexpected remains paramount. During my music studies, I specialised in accompanying singers and chamber music, areas where ultimately the most important thing is the present moment and coordination with other musicians. It is undeniable that, at the same level of pianistic skill, it was my ability to merge with others that was appreciated by my peers. I was not only “listening” for any discrepancies with the others, they felt that I was anticipating what was going to happen. I know that this ability comes from my practice of Aikidō since the age of six and from my search of seeking harmony with the partner. My inner calm allowed me to remain open, to perceive what was happening outside without being overwhelmed by emotions. I felt them, but I was not disturbed by them. Most of the time, at least!

Some experiences have been more powerful than others. Those of a successful concert in a beautiful hall are obviously very powerful, but when it comes to self-mastery, it is often the less successful experiences that reveal what we are capable of doing or not doing. Like the time I performed excerpts from Mozart’s opera Cosi fan Tutte. The performance was for secondary school pupils, in the school gym. The “piano” provided for me was actually an electric keyboard placed on trestles. We quickly realised that in order for the singers to hear me, the speakers had to be turned up to full volume, but that meant I could barely hear the singers myself. During the performance, the keyboard shook on its fragile legs, to such an extent that the large and unstable score on the small music stand threatened to fall off throughout. I also had to wedge the pedal, which was connected only by a wire, as it kept sliding back on the floor, moving further and further away from my foot. Other times, two pages of the score were turned instead of one, or the singer himself skipped two pages. In all these circumstances – which are quite disastrous for the quality of a performance –, even though my stress level was high, I did not panic, but simply looked for what I could do to be back with the others, in the right place at the right time. Time stretched out, like when you have an accident and see yourself falling, but at the same time you act to catch yourself.
Changing your perspective
Changing your perspective is not easy and requires not only physical practice, but also addressing symbols. As Carol Christ explains: ‘Symbol systems cannot simply be rejected; they must be replaced. Where there is no replacement, the mind will revert to familiar structures at times of crisis, bafflement, or defeat.’9Carol Patrice Christ, Laughter of Aphrodite: Reflections on A Journey to The Goddess, 1987, Harper & Row (San Francisco), p. 118 This is why we may need to evoke an incarnation other than the detachment of the heroes who have accompanied us for centuries.
A figure such as Kannon, “her who contemplates the sound of the world”, seems interesting to me for this purpose. This ancient goddess, worshipped in India and China under other names, became over time a bodhisattva and a Taoist goddess. But above all, she is the survival of much older matrifocal beliefs10see the works of Heide Göttner-Abendroth and Marija Gimbutas, where she represented an active inclusive principle. In her original meaning, she evoked this capacity for unification, this absence of duality between myself and the world, between subject and object. Thus, we are both receivers and transmitters of this tranquillity. It is perhaps in this sense that O-sensei Ueshiba said: ‘Attackers, whether there is one or many, it does not matter, I put them all in my belly’.11Tsuda Itsuo, private conversation with Régis Soavi. [See also The Dialogue of Silence (op. cit.), Chap. XI, p. 94 (‘Ueshiba. “I do not look others in the eyes; I do not look at their technique, their manner. I put them all in my belly. Since they are in my belly, I do not need to fight with them.’) and Heart of Pure Sky (same author and publisher), ‘Interviews on France Culture radio’, ‘La matinée des autres’, 2025, p. 46 (‘this is what Master Ueshiba said: “when there are a lot of people it doesn’t matter, I put them all in my belly”.’)]
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Article by Manon Soavi published in October 2022 in Yashima #17.
Notes
- 1cf. Starhawk, Dreaming the Dark: Magic, Sex, and Politics, 1982, Beacon Press (Boston) [French trans.: pouvoir du dedans]
- 2[See e. g. Ueshiba Morihei, The Art of Peace, Shambala Publications (Boston & London, 2002), p. 11 & 20. Or also Tsuda Itsuo, The Science of the Particular, Chap. XVIII, 2015, Yume Editions (Paris), p. 148, or (same author & publisher) The Way of the Gods, Chap. XIII, 2021, p. 101 (1st ed. in French: 1976, p. 132; 1982, p. 96)]
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- 4Laozi, Tao Te Ching, Chap. XVI, trans. David Hong Cheng (2000)
- 5[Chin. míng xīn 暝心. This paragraph paraphrases Monica Esposito, La Porte du dragon [The Dragon Gate], PhD Thesis, Université Paris VII, 1993, Introduction, p. 70, 2d parag. See also Chap. III, 2. The Secret of…, 2. Preface to…, (xii) Third stage…, pp. 216–7.]
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- 7[definition proposed by Jean François Billeter (his original term is « régime d’activité »), see his Études and Leçons sur Tchouang-tseu [Studies and Lessons on Zhuangzi] published by Allia (Paris)]
- 8The Dragon Gate (op. cit.), Chap. III, 5. Alchemical Pratice…, 7. Two texts…, (i) The Ten Rules of…, p. 345
- 9Carol Patrice Christ, Laughter of Aphrodite: Reflections on A Journey to The Goddess, 1987, Harper & Row (San Francisco), p. 118
- 10see the works of Heide Göttner-Abendroth and Marija Gimbutas
- 11Tsuda Itsuo, private conversation with Régis Soavi. [See also The Dialogue of Silence (op. cit.), Chap. XI, p. 94 (‘Ueshiba. “I do not look others in the eyes; I do not look at their technique, their manner. I put them all in my belly. Since they are in my belly, I do not need to fight with them.’) and Heart of Pure Sky (same author and publisher), ‘Interviews on France Culture radio’, ‘La matinée des autres’, 2025, p. 46 (‘this is what Master Ueshiba said: “when there are a lot of people it doesn’t matter, I put them all in my belly”.’)]

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